first post: cross eyed bear

this a blog that i am calling ruthie lou unedited... so if you are looking for neat, precise thoughts that have been mulled over and are prepackaged and easy to swallow this is not the blog for you. life is messy. and fabulous. and in my case, life is usually slightly out of control.

why ruthie lou? it is a nod to my brothers from another mother. you know who are. you have taught me a lot about love, sacrifice, and many other things we won't go into here. haha. thanks for dropping unexpectedly into my life. miss you already.

i am starting this blog at a time when life is about slow down (i think)... a time of change... a time of going back to my roots, a summer filled with family, working the 9 to 5, and hopefully a time of creativity. *if your just now hearing about my move, I will write more later.* everything i own is packed and ready to go... even my clothes. this week i am living out of a suitcase as i help run the 7th annual arts camp here in chicago. what a weird week. a time of lots fun in camp and many sad 'see you laters'. earlier today, during team time we were doing an activity where we had to pick out a picture to explain what this week was going to be like and i picked this...
no, i'm not cross eyed. but this is how i feel. like i am trying to balance myself while juggling camp, friends, good byes, tears, laughter, responsibilities and the list goes on... like i said, weird week. camp is monday through friday. going away party is saturday. i move on sunday and start work on monday. here's the thing, though... if i didn't think it was possible, i wouldn't be doing it. it is possible and i intend to live it up and have a blast. since camp starts in 8 hours, i better stop writing and catch a couple winks of sleep.
peace out, ruthie lou